I have a day job. I enjoy the people that I work with. The work itself (data analysis) can be quite dry, and at times more than a little intimidating, but most days I feel somewhat confident that I am doing a good job. My bills are getting paid, my manager is happy with my work – like is ok. Notice, I didn’t say great. Things are ok.
Why not “great”, “fulfilling” or “outstanding”, you may ask. Well, I’ll tell you. I know and have known for nearly twenty-five years now that I am not achieving my life goals. When I was a teenager, if you could peer into my room, you’d find me busily drawing a comic strip or art piece, playing my guitar or writing. Recently I took a Birkman skills assessment and the results were no surprise to me. The test concluded that I was 98% artistic, followed closely by literate and musical.
So, why am I not doing what I know I should be? It isn’t from a lack of trying, I can tell you. In 2017, I was intentionally unemployed for a full year as I pursued artistic endeavors. I wrote several songs, worked on a children’s book and tried very hard to sell some of my artwork. The struggle is real, folks.
I am convinced that I have the talent to make it in a profession of my choosing, and have not given up. I wanted to write some words of encouragement for those of you who may be in the same situation as myself. I cannot tell you how many times I have been told to give up my dreams, and muddle through a life filled with traffic jams, meetings and at times monotony. Below I am including a couple of songs that I have written in the past. Please feel free to leave a comment. As always, thanks for stopping by.
Song: panic attacks (damn I feel like dancing) – YouTube
Song: i made this for you – YouTube
Song: bad flowers – YouTube
Some of my original artwork